"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another."

Anatole France

so true...perhaps my uneasiness stems from straddling two worlds. eventually I must let go of the old and my sentimentality is holding on for dear life. the last 15 years have served me so well, independently, strong and able. I valued these things about myself. The new direction requires less sufficiency and more softness, more openness. Those attributes I also value...but they are so vulnerable.